September 5, 2022

Our Loss Of A Life Lived

the symptoms of despair, the touch of another's cold hand inhibiting the need to become other than your structured self, a self-unrealized through another's eye

revelations, the sins of youth ignored, each with a purpose of self-pleasure we rise in morning darkness we seek nothing of love for now money demands our addiction

keep to theses patterns instilled in your mind, your control of your external world an illusion, 

a motive begins to form maybe a sense of action but now unnecessary human nature is faulty and collapses

with thoughts of power, pride just illusions of control and purpose for your time present

is not for you but another seeking profits as you slave under motives that benefit others, your intellect

confirmed narrowing your vision of self importance in the grip of chaos we keep to patterns always

moving in one direction little blips of self-awareness soon to evaporate like bugs crawling up the wall seeking

an escape, we feed our reality with fear of losing importance based on income we are surrounded in corrupt ideals

unnoticed laws passed in the dead of night giving our hard earned taxes to the wealthy 1%, and yet we feel

the poison of skill in corruption and now it prances before us unafraid to be recognized as criminal desires

what we believe as life is a demonstration of the ego’s power building edifices to their character an illusion of the senses

for they built nothing without stealing someone else’s hard earned income and dived right in to our tax dollars

taking from us what monies they wanted, expanding their greed that made them stronger, more evil as they now play god

over all of us, human behavior always in flux each generation latches on to the propaganda machine that seek their conformity to be forgiven

in the new and better future when deep in our psychic we know we are being manipulated to believe in something that brings profits not for

us but the immoral leaders of our divine hypocrisy it is a pandemic of thoughtless facts that detour you from your own nature separate and unique

now finding that your footing is loose and your direction of self-understanding now evaporating even before you found your path to freedom of

self-awareness to stand on your own feet to control your future and not the one being picked for you, your life now dismissed without support now

you are put in the corral with the others and you must fight it out amongst the hateful eyes demanding a little piece of power over someone,

anyone to feel that you too could have been important if you didn’t deny your future life by seeking your own unique truth, late in the growing

calm of still thoughts I assume my life had a purpose, I think, I don’t think, I don’t want to think, I am dry of my own ideas my unique journey cancelled,

a new look, a new pride, a new party to attend and yet they know me as an actor and not a person, an individual separate without an inner awareness of

self, we are in a box without knowledge of the plans already forming without our consent, a carrot dangling before eyes once focused now each

moved to do the bidding of others, we think we know who we are and why we are here but nothing is for your benefit you are a character playing your part with

meek yeses for what is present in you is a rejection of your individuality and going along with the flow of corruption, your new persona ignores your old traits

of giving and now succumb to the demands of greed clutching for any simplistic means of pilfering anothers hard earned cash you have joined the new

human race, parasites with knowing eyes detecting one that is an easy mark as poverty joins the ranks of military madness, white supremacy ranks with

superficial normalcy of hate an irrational thought is thrown in the air, for one to grab, flipping coins to see how to demean others for fun and profit

how do humans conditioned to hunt, conditioned to follow the hero idol, replace the aggressive animal instincts still in abundance in all humanity and move

away from conventional thoughts and move toward an intuitive perception of lives wasted by fighting with each other and not finding a purposeful

awareness of the true culprits of our exploitation the affluent, these men and women are separate entities from us bought souls working hand to greed as they

control more and more of our behavior, for they are the new controlling class of our liberty barely visible to the naked eye, we are too busy trying to survive the

rampaging excess of these men and women of selfish addictions, their greedy eyes always looking for a quick profit off the working class by introducing

religion into our lifecycle, these unfeeling beings of aggressive power instigated a belief in a higher purpose and we the people of slavery had to endure

the violence of rape, murder, wars, salvation through sacrifice, giving of oneself to this higher purpose a paradise waiting for us after death while the brutal

nature of wealth that destroys lives for pleasure in the past, present and into our infinite future, a test of our faith in a silent god that seemed to live in a

vacuum of self praise and power, and when mankind would revolt against these god’s not in heaven but here on this planet that rule us as we rule

animals and our lasting expression is not one of thankful dying but one of fear of death for what awaits us on the other side could be another scam

perpetuated by a more powerful, more ruthless maniac seeking pawns in his kingdom of pain and sorrow, a hell that never ends here on earth

our god’s are illusions of belief for what we are now living through is a more aggressive, a violent taking of our lives through the devil by the concentration

of wealth in the hands of a few that dictate to us how we will live and who we will serve and their morals are illusive and their ethics are non existent when dealing

with us their inferior creatures but they will share ideas of criminal actions with others of their clan for wars equal profits, hunger equals profits, for the weak

will do anything to save their families, our taxes equal profits for they have had their hands in our pockets since the beginning of time, their dreams are not

about saving people or saving this planet from extinction but who can come up with the next plan to take, exploit and kill for their investments are a little

light right now so we need to start another war so we can sell the poor slobs our military madness with profits rising again, I think I will build myself a fortress

away from our rising oceans and have my black-water soldiers surround my home to protect me and my 6th wife if she behaves herself and doesn’t shop without

my consent, myths run rampant giving more to the wealthy than they deserve, for they are not godlike in their everyday activities of making millions of dollars

off the backs of their workers here in the US of greed and around the world, creating a growing poverty of the middle class and the already poor, these predators

seek worship for their knack of stealing someones hard earned life, we deserve more as these rich personas seek glowing praise for the peanuts they

give to charities that they write off as expenses, and they never do the dirty work themselves for they are above the little details of stealing from the people

and giving themselves bonuses for they have their designated middle men that hire mercenaries to carry out the vital protection of their assets at all cost

what we get for our struggles is the drum beat of death, our lord and protector silent after his sacrifice twenty centuries ago now we must fend for ourselves

in a wasteland of ruthlessness, brutal hate for anyone different in skin and faith for their mood changes with their profit margins, every million

stolen heightens their need for more and more pain for the worker bees, the horror of lives abandoned to fend for themselves in a violent arena without cause

and effect just hate forging its material greed, demanding more profits at the expense of the little people ignorant of their deadly force